Well, although she looks angelic in photos, I am at my wit's end with Romily at the moment. She screams. Squeals. Whatever you want to call it. At the top of her lungs. A real ear-splitter. It gives me an instant headache and sets my jaw. I cannot stand it and there is nothing I can do about it. I am not going to smack her when she screams, as that would just make it worse. I'd feel guilty and she'd think hurting someone is the right thing to do. But oh my god I find it impossible to cope with. I try to be mature about it and shut it out, but it's like a knife through my brain.
I took her out of the house this morning, as she doesn't seem to do it much when we're out and about, but of couse today was different - she screamed a fair bit when we were out too. She unfortunately fell asleep in the car and had a grand total of 7 minutes sleep. I tried to put her down this afternoon, but she just won't sleep. I can't leave her in the cot either, as she just gets hysterical and screams and screams and screams - she would do it for over an hour. She is stubborn as hell. So that's it for today. Seven minutes of sleep is not enough for a 1 year old. The rest of the day is going to be horrible. Fortunately Carl is in charge of Romily this afternoon.
The screaming started when I went back to work. I realise it's what they call separation anxiety and that she's unhappy with me for not being here, but I find it so hard to deal with on the weekends that I'm looking forward to going back to work on Mondays. I do not like feeling this way and I find it very upsetting.
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On a happier note, I have done quite a bit of machine quilting on her cot quilt. Now comes the 'by hand' bit. I've got a good idea of how I want to do it, so now it's just a matter of getting organised so I have it all ready to go in front of the telly tonight as soon as Romily is asleep in bed.
I also discovered a new patchwork shop in Canberra yesterday - it's massive! I knew the shop was there, but I always thought it was quite small and pokey, so I hadn't been in. I popped in yesterday and could not believe their range of fabrics! And they are a bit cheaper than the other shop I frequent. Too bad they're on the other side of town! I might have to make the pilgrimage a bit more often now though :)
I bought some stretchy printed fabric today - I'm going to make Romily some pyjamas. She's grown out of her sleepsuits (all-in-ones with feet), and they don't seem to come in bigger sizes. So it's time for big girl PJs!